I won't know until You tell me
I won't move until you breathe,
I'll stay wrapped up in this mistake
unless you start to seethe,

inside my veins and lungs,
unbearable and holy.
I will deny everything
until I can't deny you.

oh please, come nearer still
oh you are all there is.
to be found is to be lost in you
I'll never, never love again
the same way I have loved in you.
this is the first, this is the last
that damned ghost from christmas past,
a fiery rupture and icy blast.
don't let me go, don't leave my side
stretch all my fingers, open my eyes
and touch me, somewhere, deep inside.

and faithless as it may be,
suffer me to put my fingers in your side
if that is what it takes to be sure,
o baby Jesus in a manger.

oh there is nothing besides you
but i am such a void.
oh fill this gaping grave,
fill my soul, fill my soul...

please come inside, I'm sorry,
there's nothing to make you stay.
you're all i want,
and i'm nothing more
than a corpse rocked against a dauntless shore
a clonking ore, an apple core,
and oh, it is sore.
please make me nothing more or less
than a child who's reached by your tender kiss.

Amen